January 14th

(Nick) went for a solo run today, hoping to beat my current 10k mile time. It didn't go well. I started out too fast, 7:39/first mile, last 10k I did an 8:42/first mile. By the time I got to the top of the hill my lungs were spent. My right lung has the same spot in the medial lower section that cramps up and prevents me from taking normal size breaths. I'm pushing hard in attempt to get better but realizing that my goals are unrealistic, I'm trying to progress faster than possible. My ambitions far exceed my ability at this point. I need to slow down and pace myself. I need to not get frustrated when I don't see dramatic progression. I was really bummed after this run but talking to V made me realize that I'm not super human and that these things take time.

Dirk did tell me on the run back home that I beat my 1 mile time. So atleast something good came from it. This is more mental than one would assume and I'm glad I have V to complain to and talk strategy with.